conversations with strippers, part 2

l. is getting married on saturday. sweet girl, i've missed her. she's been away for a few months -- had a baby, and then spent a few months in jail. for traffic violations. *shakes head* crazy girls.

nice to have her back. she used to have tightly cropped, short dark hair, which gave her a kind of hot, punky slutgirl look. now her hair's longer and streaked. looks pretty. she said she had to let it grow because she couldn't use a blow dryer in prison.

new barmaid, t. jury's still out on this one. seems ok, but we all still miss tr., though she still comes in pretty regularly. apparently she's working at two other places in town now.

the continuing adventure

she was referred to me by a colleague in my office, Melody, a dominatrix, in the least, i suspect. nice, interesting, but....no heat. so many of them have this, or rather lack this -- this heat, this to me essential trait, which makes the difference, really, in the end, as to whether or not i want to see you again.

and, earlier -- before the five or 6 odd bud lights, before the dancers, the girls, those sweet, young strong girls, the dancers, those dolls -- before them there was the second -- a social worker at a hospital. a nice girl. but -- no heat.

is there a possible unified theory of the universe? would it resemble this:

1) given -- once, we had any manner of substance produced of or from the earth, our mother, at our disposal, and

2) through the millenia, more and more of our god-given rights have been restricted and/or prohibited by our fellow man, frequently in the form of our so-called elected government, then

3) now, we crave what we once had, what once was ours, unquestionably -- be that beers at eight pm, or martinis at nine-thirty, or dancers, or tapas, or good conversation and laughter, or pain killers, or aspirin, or exercise or heroin or sex or wine or (very) pretty (!) girls, nearly naked, smiling and dancing......

of course we crave these things. of course we do.

they stand in a line, fluid, single file, moving, each to the rhythm of their own precious soul, misguided perhaps, but no less precious, united only by the driving beat offered by the annoying dj, swaying, pumping, the beat and their legs, and hips, all hydraulic beauty, sculpted faces and silken hair, smooth brown skin taught over their abdomens, the lights flickering, flashing, lasers piercing the night floor.

the dance goes on.

cute

courtesy of AngelBrat....

Copy this entire list into your blog/journal.
BOLD everything about you that is true.
Leave plain anything that is false about you.
Put an asterisk (*) at the end of false statements you would LIKE to be true.

I am bi-sexual.
My spouse or lover is aware of my orientation.
My spouse or lover has watched me have sex with someone of my gender.
I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone else during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn.
I have had sex while surfing porn on the Internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights I cannot sleep without sex or masturbating.
The bed is NOT my most favorite place to have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for my spouse or lover while on the phone.
I have masturbated for someone over a web cam.
I have had sex over a web cam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if they turn me on. (once upon a time)
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped wax onto a lover's body.
I have had a lover drip wax onto my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I like having my nipples squeezed during sex.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence.*
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PLAYBOY is tame, maybe even boring.
I have clicked on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn.*
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn video.
Much of what I know about sex comes from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I have had interracial sex with someone of my gender.
I want my spouse or lover to have an interracial sex experience.
I want to watch my spouse or lover have an interracial sex experience.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research given the opportunity.
My current lover does not sufficiently meet my sexual needs.
I currently have a "crush" on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I have had sex with someone from [a former] place of employment.
I have had sex with a former co-worker of my gender.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships. (have been in the past)
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I'm not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone snuggled up next to me.*
I have had sex under water.
I have had sex in the snow.*
I am in a polyamorous relationship.
I have to have music playing while having sex.
I have had more than ten orgasms in one night.
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.*

these feelings

"You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you

These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away"

- citizen cope, "The Clarence Greenwood Recordings"

and our story continues...

the story continues, the story of the boy, i am lost, he thought, i am lost. returning from the old streets, having seen my dear longtime friends c. and m., radio tuned to the show called echoes, [reminds me that i gotta track something down from tonight's playlist. - ed.] which reminded me of another show called hearts of space, both of which i used to listen to on sunday evenings on the local non-profit radio station when i lived back in the city. it was nostalgic and somewhat bittersweet, reminding me of you, our times there together, as a couple. we had some good times there, you and i. you were usually happy when we went there. most of the times we went.

"i know you've moved on. don't ask me how, doll -- i just know. trust me. our spirits haven't been separated for long enough that i can't still feel these things. it's ok.

"really. try not to look surprised. i mean it. it's all ok. i hope you're well."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

and the horoscope says........(*drum roll*) --

Every now and then, the universe steps in, makes an executive decision, and forces us to take a right when we were absolutely sure we'd be taking a left. This is one of those times, and as sensitive as you are, you'll realize it as soon as you open your eyes this morning. So when you end up someplace you weren't supposed to be anywhere near, chatting with someone you feel an immediate affinity towards, you'll get it. You were supposed to meet.

sounds scary, and yet......that's SO what i want!

come out, come out wherever you are

Aquarius Horoscope

You're not cold and impersonal, and you're probably quite tired of reading that astrological description of your sign. The truth is, you're just picky, and there's certainly nothing wrong with that. Once you find someone who measures up to your standards -- that is, someone who's entertaining, independent and intelligent -- you can be quite devoted. Someone who answers just that description may be along shortly. If you're already attached, prepare for a brand new best friend.

please show up soon. i am unattached, and not in need of a new best friend, though i wouldn't turn one away. patience is not my strong suit as these things go.

You're the kind of person who just can't settle for anything less than the whole shebang. That's the way you are on a daily basis, but the way you're feeling now ... well, let's just say that you won't even be able to convincingly fake being satisfied if you're not. And that will be true for just about any department of life. When it comes down to the issue of love, you really won't be up for pretending.

yeah, that pretending thing. wonder if it is connected to the patience thing.

jeff tweedy keeps talking to me

There's a whisper
I would like to breathe into your ear but
I'm too scared to
Get that close to you right now...

In the beginning we closed our eyes
Whenever we kissed
We were surprised to
Find so much inside

- Wilco, Pieholden Suite, on Summerteeth